Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Park City Weekend


Mom and McKinley playing in the pool

Bret's family for as many years as I know has always gone on vacation on the weekend of UEA. So as tradition allows, we went to Park City to spend the weekend, kick back and relax. McKinley got to go swimming for the first time too. It was a really nice weekend that was not packed with running errands, and free from cleaning and teaching in church. I thought that I would post some pictures of our weekend.


Dad and McKinley posing for a picture

The Pool was FREEZING! so McKinley didn't last very long. I still think she wasn't quite sure if she liked it or not. But we still had a lot of fun with her.


McKinley playing in front of the mirror
Our room had this awesome closet mirror that went from top to bottom. McKinley was so funny to watch when we put her in front of it. She talked to her 'friend' in the mirror and even kissed her. It was the cutest ever!


Waving at her 'friend'


Puckering up!


Kisses to her 'friend'

Sunday morning after some more swimming, we all went back to our rooms to get packed up and ready for the day. McKinley had a pretty exciting weekend and was lucky to go almost all day Saturday without a nap ;) After her shower and getting almost dressed she fell asleep in mid-crawl to escape from the bed. Bret and I laughed at her and of course took some pictures.


Sleepy McKinley


and she is out!

Thursday, October 25, 2007

The Stove

Well, I did it again. This time Bret told me that I need to be a little more careful when cooking. I don't know if any of you have the same problem, but if you do will you please let my husband know so he doesn't think he married the dumbest person alive (I hope he really doesn't think that already!)
O.k. so here is the story...
Yesterday I was making lunch, McKinley was getting ready to go down for a nap (yeah, yeah, excuses.. excuses) so I was feeding her and I got out a pan, put the pan on the burner, and put everything in there I needed, then turned the burner on. Well, after putting McKinley down, I went back to the stove and the water wasnt boiling yet. I thought it was kinda odd seeming the burner was on high and I was at least gone for 10+ minutes. I looked down to see if the burner was on and noticed that something was extremely red. I then lifted the pan off the of burner and realized that I had left the burner cover on! It was smoking, purple and black with a red shiny middle. I grabbed the closest hot pad and lifted it up when the hot pad started on fire. I started blowing on the hot pad while still holding onto the burner cover and ran to the sink and turned the water on not remembering that if you turn the water on something that is really hot it will boil and bounce everywhere! I am just glad that I am here to tell the story and that I still have a house!
Maybe for Christmas this year I will get new stainless steal burner covers! That was the only one that I still had yet to burn!

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Poor Marie!



For those of you who know, I watch Dancing with the Stars diligently. My mom and her side of the family have always watched it, and I made fun of my mom all the time. This year because of Bret and school, I have found myself drawn into this show. This is the one season that my mom has not watched it... just for her I am posting this.
Many of you have probably seen this so many times, but when I watched it live, it really was quite scary. I do not have a favorite on the show and have never voted before, but today I voted for poor Marie.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Tigger Tales

Where to begin... Wow what a crazy last few days. Wednesday was Jayson's very last football game of the season, they played Bingham and lost 33-7. The touchdown that CHHS made was one that would have made ESPN's top 10 list! I really have enjoyed the last 2 months and going to each one of his games! I am really going to miss having something to look forward to on Thursday afternoons, it was the one thing that I looked forward to the most each week.



CHHS @ Hillcrest Jayson's first game

They ended their season with a 6-3 record. Pretty good I do have to say! I am really proud of him and the accomplishments that he has made just this year alone as a football player!


Jayson #60

Thursday I went to 'girls night' for the first time with some ladies from the ward. It was a lot of fun to sit and talk with everyone and laugh about the silly things our kids do. It was a great escape for me... Thursday was not the best day for me.

Friday Bret and I went and we donated blood. This was the first time that I had ever donated before, I do have to admit I was a little nervous. (although I would never tell that to Bret) It was quite the experience. I know that I have fair skin and that my veins are deep and hard to find, but I guess I figured that since the people taking my blood do this on a daily basis they would have no problem with getting a vein! BOY OH BOY WAS I WRONG!!! The girl taking my blood said that she found a vein, and she poked me and it hurt worse than having a baby! So I knew she didn't find a vein. she fished and fished, then someone else fished and fished and then a 3rd person gave it a try. And they never could find it and I could feel tingling in my fingers, so they stopped. I of course didn't want to give up at that point.

I mean I had waited for 2 hours to give blood, by dang I was giving blood. So they sent me over to someone else and she found my vein faster than anyone that I can ever remember! 5 minutes and 38 seconds later I had donated blood. And all that I could think about afterwards was eating dinner! That night I made the mistake of letting McKinley fall asleep in our bed, 8:30 the next morning I found her crawling all over me. So McKinley was lucky enough to spend all night in bed with Mom and Dad, it wont ever (fingers crossed) happen again.

Saturday I had a bridal shower to go to for Bret's cousin. It was nice, I got to put my mad Text Twist skills to use by playing a game with the letters of their names, and I won a cute pumpkin dish from Tai Pan. (with Robyn's help) Saturday night Bret and I were lazy, we stayed up and got caught up on all of our favorite TV shows, while we ate our favorite food, Del Taco! It is amazing how spending time, even if it is just cuddling on the couch watching dumb TV, it helps me relax and be so happy that Bret is in my life. I am one lucky girl!


My hottie of a husband @ a BYU game

Sunday after church, Bret had meetings. I told him to let the bishop know that he had to leave early because we had family plans to celebrate Micheal's (my brother in law) birthday. As many of you know I HATE Bret's after church auxiliary meetings! They just seem to be never ending and although I should be supportive I have come up with ways to make sure that he is not there all afternoon. I told a few people in the ward that I was going to start calling the bishops office when his meetings were supposed to be over and tell the bishop that his time with Bret was over and he was cutting into our family time now and to send him home. I, of course, was half joking. Well because church got out late and meetings started late, I told Bret that I would just wait for him to leave. I thought that meant at like 1, well he didnt come out at 1 and my neighbor asked if I would like a ride home. I got all of our stuff and rode home with my neighbor. After arriving home I realized that Bret had the keys so McKinley and I were locked out of the house. I went back to the neighbors and asked to use the phone. I was SO embarrassed, but I called the bishops office and had Bret come home to unlock the door. I know that half of the people in the meeting were wondering if that was because I really was locked out or if it was because I just wanted him home. Truth be told it was a little of both!

Later that night we got out our bouncing Tigger for McKinley, I figured that she was finally old enough to actually like it. We video taped it on the camera, I wanted to post it because I thought that it was SO cute. Although it is sideways (I cant figure out how to rotate it without buying a program so if any of you know how please let me know) So enjoy it without any sound and sideways! lol

All in all it was a pretty good weekend!
And Happy 27th Birthday Mike!!

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Celebrate the Good Times!


Bret and I at Sea World October '05


It is hard for me to believe that it was two years ago already that Bret and I went to California with his family just before we got married. This trip was not something that his family wanted me to go on, because I wasn't a part of the family yet. I remember being so hurt by them not wanting me to go, and now 2 years later, I look back and think how lucky I was to be able (made them take me) to share that experience with them.
It is amazing what two years time does to people. Robyn and I are actually friends again, I enjoy spending time with her and I can always count on her to make me laugh. I am glad that she is able to stay home with Ethan so that on the days we cant handle being in our houses for any longer, we have each other to count on. And i am glad that Robyn had a baby so McKinley will have someone her age in the family to play with.
Bret's mom and I, as many of you know, have not always seen eye to eye. But in the same like, I don't always see eye to eye with my own mom. Two years after the fact I think she is finally coming to terms with the fact that despite her valiant efforts to keep me away from Bret and vis versa, I am a member of her family. (she's not quite ready yet to call me her daughter, but we are getting there) I know that she cares for us and she loves Bret more than anything in this world. She wants to make sure that he is taken care of.
Only a mother can understand the love between a mother and her child. And although it isn't always done the way she likes or wants it to be, she sees that he is happy and so am I. Honestly, I can say that I love her.
In one month from today Bret and I will have been married for 2 years! Even though we will have no money to do anything to celebrate, I am more excited to be able to say that I am the happiest, luckiest girl in the world. I am excited to be able to say that I am cheerfully married and I still love my husband just as much, if not more than I did when we were married. And that to me is one heck of a celebration!



Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Weaping Wednesday

Its raining! I love the rain, but I don't like cold rain. I'd rather have snow.

As a morning ritual when Bret leaves for work or school, McKinley gets to come lay in bed with me. I love the time that we spend together just laying there. Sometimes we sleep, other times we play pee-a-boo and other times we sing. This morning she was very happy just to be in mom and dad's bed. She laid there and talked to the shelf that hangs above our bed and laughed, I dont know what she was laughing at, but it made me smile. Then because she hadnt had her usual morning kiss from mom, she made her way over to me... climbed up my face, took out her binkie and leaned in, slobber face and all, then kissed my check. (not a real kiss, but her version of what a kiss is) It made my day! It made me realize the bond that I have with her. The feeling of connection and the unconditional love I have for her.
In the beginning when I was trying to breastfeed, I wanted so badly the 'bond' that mothers say that they had with their children because they breastfed. After 6 weeks of trying and honestly trying, I quit. Some might say I didn't try because if I had really tried, I would have had my milk supply increase, others might just say I gave up, some might call it stress, but doesn't every new mom experience stress? Your whole world changes and every new mom goes through stress. And some might say that I will never be able to bond with McKinley the same way because I didn't breastfeed. To all of those people who think that way, they have no idea what it is like to have a starving baby. And until you go through that and know exactly what it feels like to not be able to supply your baby with the one thing that mothers are 'supposed' to already have, judgment is not yours to place.
No one can tell me that I have not bonded with Mckinley because I did not breastfeed her. I play with her, I stay home with her, I change her, I bathe her, I take care of her when she cries, I feed her and hold her when she eats. I give her everything in the world that she could ever possibly need. She is healthy, still little for her age, but that is normal because of the rough start she had. I love my child more than anything. And the bond that I have with her has nothing to do with breastfeeding. There are other things that make a good mom and that help mothers bond with their children other than breastfeeding alone. Being a positive influence, ALWAYS uplifting them, being a safe haven to all of the bad things that happen, opening your arms to your children on a daily basis and telling them that you love them, opening your home to them and their friends so that they feel welcome and loved, being there when they need a shoulder to cry on or to give them a kiss on the knee when fall, and picking them back up and telling them to try again, because there is nothing in this world that they are unable to accomplish. That is what creates a bond with your children, an everlasting bond.
I was lucky enough to have a mother who has all of these qualities. Was I breastfed, yes, but does that have anything to do with the love and connection I have with my mom, no.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Cowboys vs. Patriots


NFL's Favorite QB, my LEAST favorite!

Sundays in the fall in the Kettenring house pretty much are church, then football. Brets first word was 'ball' then 'football' (courtesy of Grandpa Freddy) So you could only guess that football is a very important part of our lives. Bret pretty much eats, drinks, sleeps football until the Super Bowl and even then you still have the Pro Bowl. I have always liked football, but because the NFL was never really watched in my home growing up everything that I know right now about it is because of Bret.
Since we have been dating I have been taught the ins and outs, the likes and dislikes, the good the bad and the ugly of football. And right now the Ugly, in my eyes, is Tom Brady and the Patriots. Not because he is a bad QB, because he is an excellent ball player. But in every sports announcers opinion, Tom Brady and the New England Patriots are the best thing to ever happen to the NFL thus far.
They have forgotten about other classic players like Bret Farve, Steve Young, Joe Montana, Dan Marino, and I could go on and on. These guys are people who actually played football WITHOUT cheating.
Anyway, today I was very excited to watch the game between the Cowboys vs. Patriots. (both undefeated) I think that Tony Romo is probably the one of the best match ups to Tom Brady right now (the other being Peyton Manning).
I was happy to see that the Cowboys held their own for almost the whole game. I just wish they could have done it all the way through so the Tom Brady and Belichick would loose and loose big. It didnt happen though. The part that made me so upset about it, is that the announcers went on and on about how poorly the Cowboys played. ERG!!!!
I now think that the only team that might actually have a chance of beating them is the Colts. So everyone mark your calendars for November 4th! Its going to be a defeat like NO OTHER!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Short Saturday

Well, I dont have much time to write, but I do want to at least write something. This weekend I cannot believe has just flown by! Yesterday McKinley went to show and tell for Anna. My mom offered to take her for the rest of the day so the Bret and I could go out. So I took her up on the offer and came home in the afternoon and finally cleaned, not picked up, my house for the first time since I have had McKinley. It really did take me almost all afternoon and I was just finishing getting ready when Bret got home from work.
Bret and I went to Chili's for dinner and then went to see 'The Game Plan'. It was nice to be able to spend some one on one time with Bret. Since he has started school the time that we have together is so limited and I was very grateful to be able to spend some time with him.
If you have not yet seen 'The Game Plan' I would recommend it. I think that in about 5 or 6 years I will have a better understanding for the movie. But for the time being, it kept my attention.
Today all Bret has studied he has a big anatomy test on Monday (he has to know ALL the bones and muscles for ONE test) and I have prepared my lesson that I am teaching in RS tomorrow. The lesson I am teaching is on Strengthening Families. It is a good lesson for me to be teaching right now because I am just starting my family. And I hope that I will be able to do everything that I need to so that I will have a family that is strong in the gospel. I know that because of the gospel, we as families can be together forever. I also know that this does not come easily and that the Lord requires us to work in order to get such a great blessing. Although as my mother in law says 'some days it is a blessing and other days it is a curse'. SO TRUE! But really what a wonderful blessing!

Friday, October 12, 2007

T G(oodness) I F

Ok to start... What is going on? Another recall for something with lead!?!?! Seriously, the US needs to stop buying from China (wont ever happen I know, but just a thought) but SERIOUSLY!!!
Yesterday was such a great day. It was really nice to get out of the house and just do whatever I wanted. Robyn and I went to the mall she needed shoes and I just needed to get out. We then went to Jayson football game. And for those of you who already know how much I love going to his games, you will get to hear about it again. They played West Jordan, and at first I was a little worried... they didnt seem to have it all together. But after they ran it back for a TD in the 2nd quarter, the energy just traveled through for the rest of the game and they won 22-16!! I honestly don't know what I am going to do when his season is over.
Larry and DeAnn (Bret's Uncle and Aunt from AZ) came to watch Jayson play with their kids. For having only met their girls, Maria and Anastasia, once last year right after them adopting them, they really have picked up on the language and are very friendly. Last year about this time, they did not know one word of English and now, they talk and talk and talk. Maria, 11, was telling me stories about her friends in school and about the twins she likes to play with. When she talks, she sounds like a true valley girl. She says 'like' and 'totally' and she moves her hips and hands. It is the CUTEST thing. Anastasia, 8, was telling me when her birthday was. "March 24" she said and I then told her mine was the 21st of March. I thought that she would think that was pretty neat, but her reaction was not what I thought. DeAnn told me she has not quite figured out emotions and that she thinks that is the reaction I wanted. I still thought it was cute and kinda funny. They also loved to play with McKinley and McKinley loved them back. They really are very cute girls. And I was very glad that they came to hang out with us. I told the girls that they could come and stay at our house anytime they wanted. I hope that Larry and DeAnn take me up on that offer.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

XBOX for Young Mens


Bret and McKinley watching the boys play xbox

Last night Bret got a phone call from one of his counselors in Young Mens (Bret is Young Mens President) asking him what they had planned on doing for YM's that night since the church building was being used for a wedding reception. Matt, the counselor, suggested just to cancel young mens and just do the planned activity for the following week. Bret of course did not like that idea, and called his other counselor to see if he had any suggestions. You guessed it, he suggested x-box. So, before I knew it we had 8 boys, 3 counselors, doughnuts, soda pop and lots of candy in our house that once was peace. Because we only have one main room, I really didnt have any where to take McKinley, so we stayed and watch the boys play Halo.



some of the boys playing
Before you knew it McKinley was in on all the action that was going on. She army crawled her way to an open controller and thought that she was SO big because she was 'playing' too. It was very cute and I thought that I would share a few pictures.


McKinley playing xbox with the 'big kids'


McKinley again, with the xbox controller

Two hours later, the boys all went home and our house was back to its normal peace and quiet. Although, as soon as they saw it was time to leave the all grabbed handfuls of candy, stuffed a doughnut in their faces and snatched a soda to go, leaving a trail of wrappers and crumbs from the kitchen to the front door. I am not sure if any of the boys got spiritual upliftment (is that a word?) but I do know that they had fun.
It was nice to have some extra excitement at our house. McKinley loved having some other faces to look at other than mine and I was very happy to have her content just being on the floor.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Is it Friday YET?

I am sitting here in the office, trying to get McKinley to actually go to sleep so I can have time to get the house picked up. But for those of you with kids you know that somedays getting your kids to actually take nap is more work then having them awake. So I am sitting here trying to focus my attention to what I am going to write rather than McKinley crying in the background.

Yesterday I was grateful for my job and today I hate it. I love being able to work from home, but sometimes I really do not like being 'on-call' all day long. I don't like not being able to talk to my bosses at my need; being able to walk into their office, shut the door and be able to talk to them with their undivided attention. Now I call and then they call me, they don't see the expression on my face and I don't see the expression on theirs. If I dont understand something or I have questions I have to get everything and the kitchen sink all packed up to go in. But I am very glad that I am able to be home and be able to even take McKinley with me if I need to.

We still haven't heard from Spence, he must just really be busy this week. He is Zone Leader so who knows where he is and if he got called out to fix a companion problem, or if is is just so busy that he didn't even have time to think about home. Which is always better then thinking too much about home. He only has 3 months left, so I guess its better that he is working and not sitting on his bags!

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Terrific Tuesday

Today is off to a much better start then yesterday. This morning walking felt very refreshing and for once actually felt like I had exercised. One of my bosses called me this morning, very early I might add, to tell me he and his wife and been through a whole bunch a baby stuff and he brought it to work with him so if I wanted any, I could go through it and take what I wanted. Up until this point his wife would go through their girls' clothes and he would bring BIG, HUGE, bags full of clothes, shoes, toys, pretty much anything and everything that you can think of. So I was surprised that he had said that I could go through the bags and take what I wanted. I waited for McKinley to wake up, we ate, got ready and went to go rumedge through what he had brought. When I got there to my amazement, he had high chairs, booster seats, strollers, clothes, shoes, toys. EVERYTHING! Another girl and my work is pregnant so I had her come out and together we went through everything and I let her take everything that I already had. (he had told me I had first dibs) I picked up a few things, some shoes, and some toys, a booster seat and some clothes. As I was going through everything I couldn't help but feel so very blessed for everyone that has helped Bret and me with McKinley.
Its funny how everything has just seemed to work out. McKinley was NOT planned and we were very worried about being able to afford to have me stay home, and have Bret go to school full time and work full time. Day care is way too much money and it really wasnt worth the extra $150 a month for me to work full time and have someone else take care of her. I was lucky enough to have quit my other job just a few months before we found out we were pregnant and find the job that I have now. I have 2 bosses who understand the importance and my want to stay home with my children. They also understand how hard it is to pay for school and have kids, so they have allowed me to work from home, so that I am able to earn a few extra dollars and be home with my baby. Not only have they done this for me, but one of them has given us almost 90% of the clothes McKinley has. Not to mention they toys, books, and everything else she has. I am overwhelmed with gratefulness for them and our families who have helped us out.

The day Spence and I went through the temple. Almost 2 years ago

Although I do not want to leave this entry on a sad note, I do have to mention that I was VERY disappointed when we had not received a email from Spence. I am so proud of him and his decision to go on a mission. I look forward to his letters we get weekly and I was sad not to get one yesterday. Maybe today!?! :)

Monday, October 8, 2007

Monday, Monday, Monday

Well, Bret's back to school :( so this morning was an early one for the both of us. I started a walking group with some ladies in my neighborhood and we walk every weekday morning. I do it early enough that Bret will still be home with McKinley so I can take a break from being a mom and start my day off on the right foot. Although Monday mornings seem to be the hardest to get my butt out of bed. This morning I accidentally slept in through one more snooze... and one of the ladies that I walk with gave me quite a lecture about being on-time (I was like 3 ok, maybe 5mintues late) I was not the happiest person about the lecture. I was the one who started the group and if she didn't like what time it was in the morning and she was already rushing to get ready in the morning because she came walking with us, then maybe she should find a better time for her to find time to exercise. I know that might sound a little harsh, but she seriously lectured me like I was her daughter and I came home 2 hours past my curfew. I just needed to vent for a minute.
Anyway, so today Mckinley slept and slept and slept. I wonder if she is going through a growth spurt. She seems to be more clingy to me lately too. Which is understandable, she is with me 24/7 and I am the one who feeds her, changes her, bathes her, etc. Other people on the other hand, do not like the fact that my baby is a momma's girl.

Mckinely and me
Before McKinley I never really understood why babies liked their mom's so much. But now I have a better understanding for why. Its not only the babies that like their moms, but the mom's like their babies. Bret and I rarely go on a date without her, so she hardly ever has a baby sitter and when she does it is always family. When I am away from her for longer than 2hours I feel like I am neglecting her and then when I get home all I want to do is hold her and play with her. And she in return, I hope, has the same desire.

Sunday, October 7, 2007

What a weekend

I have enjoyed this weekend so much and I am very sad to see it come to a close. Bret didnt have school Thursday or Friday because of fall break, and I have welcomed every minute that we have been able to spend together. Jayson, Bret's 16yr old brother, came over Friday and has stayed at our house for the last two days. Although sometimes its hard for me to have my husband revert back to his 16 year old ways, I really do like having Jayson around.

Friday night we all made a trip to IKEA to pick up plug covers and locks for the kitchen drawers because McKinley is mobile. She isnt crawling quite yet, but this last week she has found her knees and is rocking. It will only be a matter of time before my life as I know it will change forever. No more leaving to go to the bathroom, answer the phone, put a load of laundry in... without her following me.

McKinley and her cousin Milea playing at our house

Jayson had never been to IKEA before, it was fun to watch him as we traveled through the entire store. Friday night we all stayed up WAY past all of our bedtimes watching nothing less, but football.
Saturday was the beginning of conference weekend. I am not sure what it is about this weekend that I love so much. Is it the fact that we sit in our pj's all day in front of the TV or if it is just the fact that I feel so uplifted after listening to their words.
The men all go to the priesthood session and the girls all get together and go shopping or out to eat. This year I went with Brets family and all of the ladies on his dads side of the family. Bret's uncle and aunt from AZ were in town and it was fun to be able to talk to DeAnn and hear about her family, especially her girls they adopted last year from Russia, and how they are all adjusting. It was very nice to just have some "girl time".
This morning McKinley had her first finger foods that actually made it into her mouth. I made pumpkin pancakes and couldn't resist not letting her try them. She of course LOVED them. So, I put her in the high chair and cut up a pancake and let her pick up the pieces and eat it. Not all of the pieces actually made it in her mouth, but for the most part they did.



McKinley with her first cookie, yes
the cookie did eventually come out of her shirt

Its an indescribable feeling to see McKinley, who once could do nothing for herself, start to learn things and be independent. It is a great joy to see her grow up and see her personality start to show. I love the time that she is awake and laughs and giggles at the funny things I say and do. (I think that adults would laugh too at the the things we do to get babies attention) Her favorite game right now is peek-a-boo. Although she has not yet figured out she can use her hands to cover her eyes, she uses objects like the coffee table and her blanket. We both get laughing so hard I start to cry. Everyday is a new adventure and such a joy. I never thought that children would bring a sense of fulfillment to my life.








Saturday, October 6, 2007

The Beginning



Bret is always telling me to start writing in a journal. He is a big journal writer and it always has driven me crazy that he spends hours on hours on Sunday afternoons writing. I will always try to distract him because now that he is going to school full time and working full time, our time together is very limited and I love to spend every minute that I have with him. He of course says to me 'I need to write in my journal, do you know how behind I am?' and then grudgingly I let him (sometimes) continue writing.
I never really have understood the whole purpose in writing a journal until I had McKinley. My mom-in-law bought me and my sis-in-law a baby calender that you put stickers on when your baby does things for the first time; rolls over, finds their voice, crawls, etc. Because Robyn, my sis-in-law, didn't have her baby until the middle of August, we both received our calendars in July. Now by this time Mckinley had done a lot of things. We had been to the Dr. for wellness visits 3+ times. Mckinley had already rolled over, sat by herself unsupported, ate solid food, and the list goes on. So when I sta
rted to fill out this calendar, I pulled out Bret's journal and began reading trying to see if maybe he wrote about these big milestones McKinley had. It wasnt until then that I finally admitted having a journal was a good thing.
I never thought about writing my experience that I had with breastfeeding or even how it was to have a baby that not only had jaundice, but who was not getting enough to eat her first 2 weeks of life. Or about the feelings I had when she smiled at my for the first time or how I felt when she burned her hand on my curling iron. Also about how hard it is to be a stay at home mom, who's husband works full time and goes to school full time.
So this is my start of keeping a journal. It might get lost in cyberspace by the time my children are old enough or even care about what I had to say, but for me it might be therapeutic to write down my feelings instead of, as I say to Bret, 'talk to myself for 14hours everyday'.